I used to want more
Now I am calmer with less
I used to search for love
Now I am better at showing love
I used to try to be popular
Now I am content for being principle centred
I used to search for happiness outside
Now I am happier seeking happiness within
I used to think I would be happy when I get what I want
Now I am grateful for what I have
I used to regret the past and fear the future
Now I am more present
Here and now
Conscious of being me.
🌾Mak Long
I FEEL YOU
Rosnah Ahmad/Mak Long
I know...
What it is like
To be there
In a dark place
So alone...
I know what it is like
In fact...
I was there many times
Don't know where to grasp
I lost hope
They say...
There is light at the end of the tunnel
Yet...
I can't see it
My friend,
Reach in
Search your soul
There is always light
It is there
Have faith
My friend,
Reach out
There is always a shoulder to cry on
Someone who is willing to listen
Have some trust
My friend,
Hold on...
Do not lost hope
For His help is always near
My friend
Be there for me too
One day I might need you
Help me through
Don't make me fall too far
Pull me back up
I need you...
Reach out to me
Help me to reach in
After all, what are friends for
My friend,
Let us stay true
To each other
Only for the sake of...
The Light.
Cold!
My heart has become cold
Like the cold winter's night
The coldness within me makes me wonder
Makes me ponder
What has happened to me?
Am I becoming bitter or better?
Oh my dear self,
Do not let life breaks you
You are such a beautiful soul
Full of compassion
May life makes you better
Despite what happened
And how you have been treated
That makes your heart freeze
Numbing you emotions..
Winter,
Will never last and will pass
Melting away the ice and the river flows
Nourished and flourished
The beautiful spring day
That brings joy and hope...
Smile,
Yes, it will bring back your smile
The radiant smile
Like the blossoming flowers in the spring
The smile that is truely yours
That resonates from within
From a warm and loving heart
That is healed and healing
Reclaimed and safely HOME.
🌾Rosnah Ahmad
#LoveUrself
#EmpoweringYou
It is so dark
Pitch black
I am deep down in a well
Help me! I am drowning
I am suffocating
I am terrified
Please help me!!!
I hear a voice from a distance
So soft and sound so far
"There is a light, LOOK UP"
" REACH OUT for the light"
"You can do it, give me your hand"
I look up
I see the light
Though it is dim
It flickers
I reach out to the light
"Come out my dear friend"
I hear the voice echoing
"It is ok, I got you, you are safe now"
"Breathe"
I open my eyes
I realise I am alive
It was not a dream
It was me trapped in my own emotions
Little that I know I was all the while in darkness that finally drowning me..
Thank you my dear friend
For hearing my cry for help
For being there when I was so vulnerable
Your empathy saved me
I am AWAKENED
I feel my emotions flowing
I saw the LIGHT within me
I feel the LOVE that resonates from inside me...
I almost lost myself
Now I found my house
I have come home
Nourished and flourished
LOVING and EMPOWERING me
Happy and joyous
Living and giving the real me
Till it is time for me to depart
To a better HOME
And live happily ever after.
🌷Rosnah Ahmad
#LoveUrself
#EmpoweringYou
Little that I know I have been a victim
Little that I know I have been belittled
Little that I know I had believed the words you labelled me
Little that I know I was suppressed
By someone I trusted whole heartedly
Someone I truely love...
Now I am awakened
Reclaiming and loving myself
Finding my safe haven
Where I belong
I know I am worthy
I am EMPOWERED
I am not a victim
I am a survivor
I am a VICTOR.
🌷Rosnah Ahmad
#LoveUrself
#EmpoweringYou
Read to me
I am not too young to enjoy
Sitting on your lap
Hearing your soft voice
Uttering the words
So soothing....
Read to me
I love hearing the sound of words
The sentences in the story
So I can understand...
Read to me
I would grow to love books
Opening doors to exploration and learning
So I will thrive with knowledge...
Read to me
I love our time together
Keep reading to me
So I feel loved.
By Rosnah Ahmad/Mak Long
#SentuhanBapaBelaianIbu
Being
Rosnah Ahmad
My dear children,
I am not perfect in everyway
Nor I know how to be one
But I am chosen to be your mom
The greatest gift of all...
Not knowing what I am up to
I am willing to learn
To explore and nurture
The best that I could...
Along the way
Little that I know
It is not about always being right and in control
Expecting you to fulfil my dreams
Or walking my journey
It is more about being concious and mindful
You are not mine nor I am superior
I am merely here to hold your hand
And to love you unconditionally...
For whatever we have gone through together
Through thick and thin
Always remember...
It is not so much about celebrating
And we are not justified by our doing
It is more about awakening the purpose
Honouring the connection
And fostering our being.
Love
Your mom.
Fear
Fear often consumes me
What if I fail?
Fear
Fear often gives me anxiety
What if I succeed?
Fear
Fear often numbs me
What if I do nothing?
Fear
I hear myself saying
" Rise above your fear
Bite the apple
Give it a shot"
Fear
What have I got to lose?
Rosnah Ahmad
Flowers Of The Light
Rosnah Ahmad
Flowers at the crossroads
In the grey of the dusk
Entering the night
Leaving the light of the day...
Flowers in the dusk
Blooming as they are
Fading into the darkness
Into the night
With no moonlight and stars...
Flowers in the night
Reaching out
In the dark
While waiting for the day light
It seems so long
So quiet...
Flowers in the dark
Reaching in
Seeking the soul
Little that they know
The light is always there
Shining through
The light of the soul...
The flowers of the light
Found the beauty of the souls
The source of joy and happiness
The guidance of The Light
The Most Compassionate
The Most Beneficient.
Hurt
Rosnah Ahmad
Being hurt
Again and again
As I am hurting
I feel my heart aching
I hear a voice within me saying
"Open your heart
Make it bigger
So your hurt would dissolve"
I inhale
I feel my heart expanding
I exhale
I let it go...
Being hurt
Again and again
Being human
Regain and again
With every breath
My heart becomes larger
With every breath
I found love
With every breath
I am dying.
Am I A Good Mother?
Rosnah Ahmad
Am I a good mother???
A question more than often trouble me
Again and again
Coming and going
As time passes over the years...
Am I a good mother???
I don't know
But one thing I know...
I always want to learn
To unlearn and relearn
To improve
I know...
I want to be a good mother...
Am I a good mother???
I guess it is always a reminder
For what kind of mother I can be
Thriving to be a good mother
Striving along the journey
Staying faithful
In a world full of hope...
Am I a good mother???
Yes! I am
The best that I know how
The best that I can be
I have it in me
For I am enough
I honour myself
I am compassionate
And I know because...
I love my children
Just the way they are!!!
Am I a good mother???
I always know...
Parenting is not about competing
Nor it is about winning
It is about encouraging
Every child is unique
Every mother too...
We bloom in our own ways
And together we make the world...
Beautiful.
#SentuhanBapaBelaianIbu
#YouMatter
Seeking
To fill the hole
The emptiness
The heart is attached to...
People
Career
Material
Money
Wealth
The quest to the emptiness
Goes on and on
The endless attachments...
Seeking
To fill the hole
The emptiness
Seek Allah
The Loving One
The Source of Peace.
Rosnah Ahmad
#YouMatter
Time
Rosnah Ahmad
Travelling through time
I explored life
Not knowing
What is the outcome
I strived
I thrived
Often I fell
Stranded in my own predicament
Trapped in my own fear...
Through the challenges
I chose to get up
Again and again
With His Guidance
With His Mercy
I made it now
I made it here...
Through the years
I learn
I grow
It is not what I have achieved
It is what I have become...
Through the time
I am thankful
I have faith!
My effort matters
I will make it then
I will make it there
The Hereafter
InSyaaAllah.
Rosnah Ahmad
#YouMatter
I made my decision
I never knew what I was getting into
I wonder how it will turn out
Fear gets to me
Again and again...
I may not have the answer
Just yet...
I just have to listen to my heart
Have faith in my decision...
I know I need to move
Life is a journey
Full of choices
Full of discoveries...
I have made my decision
I stand by it
I learn
I grow.
Oh woman,
What is it that makes you worthy?
Is it becoming the daughter of every parent's dream?
Is it becoming the friend everyone can rely on?
Is it becoming the devoted wife?
Is it becoming the mother who you are expected to be?
Is it becoming the citizen who serves the country?
Is it being a stay home mom?
Or is it choosing your own path?
Oh woman,
What defines you?
What makes you worthy?
What makes you happy?
Oh woman,
You are worthy
In every way
Just be happy
Your smile lights up the world...
Oh woman,
You are worthy
You matter
You shine.
Be You
Rosnah Ahmad
You
Unique
Creative
Born to standout
Makers by design...
You
Be you
Get into action
Serve
Persevere...
You
Know yourself
Love yourself
Honour yourself...
You
Matter.
ASPIRE2Action
#abangsmartaspireteam
Through the years
Through the journey
I stumbled
I fell
I suffered
I cried...
Through the years
Through the tears
Through the fears
I learned
The lessons of life...
Through the years
Through the trials
Through the joys
Through the despairs
I made my choices
I grow...
Through the years
By the declining of time
I have hope
I have faith
I honour my life
The life of reason...
Through the years
I am truely grateful.
